[Cold Open]
[Full distorted guitar riff in 5/4]
DUM—DA—DUM...
DUM-DUM!
[Hard stop]
[Voice, calm]
I said:
“I’m fine.”
[Second voice, much lower, Spanish]
Mentira.
[Drums enter]
[Verse 1]
[English voice]
I got up.
Made coffee.
Answered two emails.
Took the trash downstairs.
Normal morning.
Nothing dramatic.
[Spanish inner voice]
No dormiste.
[English]
Had a shower.
Found my keys.
Missed the first bus.
Caught the second.
No problem.
[Spanish]
Te quedaste
diez minutos
sentado en la cama
mirando el suelo.
[English, slightly irritated]
I was tired.
[Spanish]
No.
[Prepared piano]
TUM.
[English]
I said
I was tired.
[Spanish]
Y yo te digo
que no era eso.
[Viola tremolo enters]
[Verse 2]
[English]
At work
someone asked:
“You good?”
I said:
“Yeah.”
Easy.
One syllable.
Efficient.
[Spanish]
Qué cómodo.
[English]
Excuse me?
[Spanish]
“Sí.”
Siempre “sí.”
Sí estoy bien.
Sí puedo.
Sí llego.
Sí me encargo.
Sí.
Sí.
Sí.
[Drums begin pushing harder]
[English]
What do you want me to say?
[Spanish]
Algo cierto.
[English]
Like what?
[Spanish]
Que estás enfadado.
[English]
I’m not.
[Spanish]
Que tienes miedo.
[English]
I don’t.
[Spanish]
Que estás harto.
[Voice cracks]
[English]
Stop.
[Everything cuts]
[Silence]
[Cello enters alone]
[Spanish, almost whispering]
Eso sí era verdad.
[Verse 3 - voice drives tempo]
[English]
I’m not angry.
[Spanish]
Entonces
¿por qué aprietas la mandíbula?
[English]
I’m concentrating.
[Spanish]
¿Y por qué
te tiemblan las manos?
[English]
Too much coffee.
[Spanish]
¿Y por qué
no contestaste a tu hermano?
[English]
Busy.
[Spanish]
¿Y a tu madre?
[English]
Busy.
[Spanish]
¿Y a ti mismo?
[Long silence]
[Prepared piano]
TUM.
TUM.
TUM.
[English voice drops]
That’s not fair.
[Spanish]
No.
Pero funciona.
[Guitars return, heavier]
[Pre-Climax]
[English]
Fine.
You want honesty?
[Spanish]
Sí.
[English]
Fine.
I hate that
everybody thinks
I can handle everything.
[Spanish]
Sigue.
[English]
I hate that
I helped build that idea.
[Spanish]
Sigue.
[English]
I hate that
when I need something
I wait until
I don’t need it anymore.
[Spanish]
Más.
[English]
I hate—
[Voice breaks]
I hate
how good I got
at disappearing
without leaving.
[Drums stop]
[Spanish]
Ahí.
Eso.
[One breath]
[Full band explodes into 4/4]
[Chorus - first real chorus]
I SAID I’M FINE!
[Spanish voice underneath]
DIJISTE QUE ESTABAS BIEN.
[Lead]
I SAID IT
SO MANY TIMES
I ALMOST
MADE IT TRUE!
[Spanish]
Casi.
[Lead, louder]
I SAID I’M FINE!
BUT I’M TIRED
OF TRANSLATING PAIN
INTO SOMETHING
EASY FOR YOU!
[Spanish voice]
Dilo bien.
[Lead scream]
I’M NOT FINE!
[Spanish]
Otra vez.
[Lead, bigger]
I’M NOT FUCKING FINE!
[Huge guitar hit]
[Break - no drums]
[Only distorted bass + cello]
[English voice, exhausted]
There.
Happy?
[Spanish]
No.
Pero por fin
te creo.
[Small laugh from lead]
That’s annoying.
[Spanish]
Lo sé.
[Build]
[Viola tremolo]
[Guitar feedback]
[English]
So what now?
[Spanish]
Ahora nada.
[English]
Nothing?
[Spanish]
Respira.
No conviertas
cada verdad
en una tarea.
[Drums begin slowly]
[English]
That’s surprisingly reasonable.
[Spanish]
También sé hacer eso.
[Final Chorus]
[Full rock band]
I SAID I’M FINE!
NOW I TAKE IT BACK!
I DON’T NEED
A BETTER VERSION!
I NEED
A LITTLE AIR!
I SAID I’M FINE!
[Spanish]
YA NO.
[English]
I SAID I’M STRONG!
[Spanish]
NO TODO EL TIEMPO.
[English]
I SAID I DON’T NEED ANYONE!
[Spanish]
ESA FUE
LA PEOR DE TODAS.
[Lead cracks into scream]
THEN STAY!
[Spanish voice, equally intense]
¡AQUÍ ESTOY!
[Both voices together]
NO PERFECT ANSWER!
NO CLEAN END!
JUST ONE VOICE
FINALLY
STOPPING
LONG ENOUGH
TO HEAR
THE OTHER ONE!
[Band stops suddenly]
[Outro]
[Voice, English]
Tomorrow,
if somebody asks:
“You good?”
[Small pause]
[Spanish inner voice]
¿Qué vas a decir?
[English]
...
“I’ve had better days.”
[Spanish]
Me sirve.
[Clean guitar harmonic]
